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Day 8: Patiently in waiting

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I heard this song a few months ago, it has stuck with me through this journey and is something I keep singing in my head during the day to remind me of God.  It has been a number of days since my last writing and I had to give time for a couple of things to develop.   That song is “While I’m Waiting” by John Waller.

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve you while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord

The hardest part for me is waiting for God to show me what He wants me to do.  I want good things to happen to me quickly.  I pray for a new opportunity and next day I want it to be right in front of my eyes.   It has taken many moons to realize that God doesn’t work in my time table.  It is I that needs to wait patiently.  I need to keep doing the right things and when it is time, God will make it known.

Just like the song says, I am waiting and I am hopeful.  This song has given me hope during the events of the last few month and that while nothing is happening (at least known to me) I am to wait and continue praising God and continue to do things that I can to serve God.  For some time now I have asked God for a new career opportunity and for the longest time nothing happened, I was unsuccessful in my searches.  I felt there was a reason I was still at my current workplace and despite how much I wanted to move on I needed to stay and do the work that God wants me to while I am there.  This song and its words helped me during times when I question why.

I am human and I will have moments of doubts but it is during these times of test that will strength my faith.  And songs like this will only help increase and strengthen my faith.  In addition to continue being an inspiration to how to live my life.

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November 29, 2009 at 11:23 PM

Day 7: Sabbath

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By the seventh day God had finished the work he had been doing; so on the seventh day he rested from all his work.  And God blessed the seventh day and made it holy, because on it he rested from all the work of creating that he had done. — Genesis 2:2-3

Lately, I have been working more than I like.  For the past three weeks it seems that on Sunday I run out of energy to do any work-related tasks.  Don’t know if it is coincidence or not, maybe God is telling me to stop working and pay attention, enjoy life if you will.  Weather seems to get better on Sundays too.

Even God took a day off from work.  I think with our hectic schedules one must take time for themselves and to also enjoy, appreciate what is available.  The last few Sundays have been days of reflection and to give thanks to God (or the Universe if you don’t believe in God) for all that we have, to enjoy with family and friends.  I try to enjoy the day with my dogs, to snuggle up with them if it gets cold.  When I work too much they have this facial expression like they are sad that I am not spending time with them.

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November 7, 2009 at 12:12 PM

Day 6: Second Chances

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God: Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other? – Evan Almighty (2007)

I love that scene in Evan Almighty, I think about it every time I pray for something that is more of a chance to demonstrate instead of just owning it outright.  Last night something happened that caused me to think I have failed in such a demonstration to God.

Let me set the scene for you, it was about 8:49pm on the evening of Halloween.  It was raining in Atlanta and I was on my way home from a Tae Kwon Do demonstration at my school, it was our annual kids’ halloween party and there were so many active kids running and screaming, no doubt energized by the candies they had consumed all day.  So I pulled into the subdivision of my home and there were so many cars lined up on both side of the street leaving me very little room to drive as well as people walking around asking for candy and seeing them in the dark in the rain was not easy, couldn’t they have dressed in neon blinking lights.  Oh and I was behind a car that was clearly lost and was going about 1 mph looking to determine what to do.  I just want to get home, see my dogs, eat my chinese food takeout, and watch the ending of the Georgia/Florida game to which I kinda knew we lost but was still hopeful for an upset.

So I drive up to my street and see a white van parked in my driveway,  smack in the middle of the driveway so I couldn’t get to my own garage.   I was like, who the heck is this person.  Nice parking!  My first action was to block them so I can give them a talk on how not to park.  There was the entire cul-de-sac they could have parked on or by my mailbox.  I parked right behind the van so they couldn’t get it and went inside to put down my food.  Then I stopped and thought that was not cool of me and went back out to see if I can find the owner of the van and to park somewhere else so they wouldn’t have to bother me later on in the night.

As I parked in another location the owner of the van showed up and we had an exchange of greetings.  While I was mostly polite it was my sarcastic remarks that had me thinking I failed in a chance to show God that I am learning James 1:19-20.  I was upset the entire evening, not because of the van but that I failed God.  I kept thinking how can He help me in the next chapter of my life if I can’t show that I have turned a new leaf.

The next morning I was trying to think of an apology prayer to God and ask for His forgiveness when I was looking for a show to have as background noise after watching an Andy Stanley sermon on Family Net.  I saw Joel Osteen on the guide and decided to click on it to see what it was like.  I had heard his church is if not the largest, one of the largest (and oh, it was huge, like a stadium when the cameras panned out).  The message Joel was giving could not have been more perfect, maybe this was God talking back to me and it became the topic of this post.

Joel says that we are not perfect and God give us second chances.  He knows the mistakes we are to make and we have many path to the destiny He has selected in us. God is not going to give up on us just because we made a mistake or did not listen to the warning He gives us.  To me, this was a response to the incident of last night.

Joel says when you make mistakes, repent and move forward.  When you fall off the bike, dust yourself and get back up.  Nothing we have been through has not gone to waste, it has made a deposit in our heart.  It is another step towards our God given destiny.  One of his example was Jonah and the whale.  God told Jonah to do something and Jonah instead did something else.  Jonah ended up being swallowed by a whale and spent 3 days 3 night in the belly until he prays to God.  Joel’s point in telling this story is that God knew the mistakes Jonah was going to make even before Jonah made it.  And God did not give up on him, it was part of His plan for the whale was in the right place at the right time.

Our destiny is bigger than our mistakes, when God designed our destiny He has calculated our mistakes.  I may have failed but He is still my God, He still knows my name, He still has a plan for me.

Written by Kelvin

November 1, 2009 at 8:49 PM

Day 5: Reading the Bible

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The Bible is a remarkable book, not only is it full of geography references, historical events or places, teachings of God, story of Jesus, it is also an instructional book telling us how to be a better person.  People have told me that the Bible is its own best teacher but what does that meant to me.

I used to think that reading the Bible should be in order of the page numbers.  To get to know the story of Jesus you have to read through Genesis, Exodus, etc.  I thought the Bible was a history book, a written down book of tales.  I have tried to read through it from the beginning but stopped because to me the Old Testament was a little boring.   So some time ago I decided to forgo the following of the page numbers and skip around.  I started reading the New Testament and found it to be at times so enlightening that I can’t put it down despite passing my bedtime.

I have seen people just flip to a random passage and read from there.  I tried it and found it kinda fun because my view on the Bible changed since I started reading it.  I still at times want to lookup location references to see if it actually existed or anything on the History channel or Discovery channel dealing with lost cities of the Bible interests me but I have started to use the Bible as a way to find ways of dealing with the day to day trials I am facing.

A few days ago I came across James 1:19 and a lightbulb clicked on in my mind.  I kinda wish I had came across it a long time ago.  Just a hunch but it may not have made as much of an impact had I just read across it without a matching battle scar.

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving. Colossians 3:23-24

Events at work have been bothering me for a while and the above verse teaches me to think about work differently.  Even if you don’t believe in God, the first two phrase is also meaningful and powerful.  As I contemplate my next move, I know that the job will not define me and there is a reason why I am given my talents.  I don’t know why things are happening at work and I know there is a reason behind it but I am reminded of a saying:

The purpose of my life at work is to show that God is at work in my life.

The stories and characters in the Bible gives me hope.  Just like Joseph in Genesis, if I stay patient and continue believing in God and doing things right by Him, I know He will take care of me.  After all, I have been blessed in many ways than I care to count even with the trials of life I have faced and am facing.

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November 1, 2009 at 8:07 PM

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